Tuesday, March 15, 2011
Counting My Blessings
Being a mother is so rewarding and so terrifying at the same time. The love that a mother feels for her child can only be compared to the love that Christ feels for each of us. I would do ANYTHING for Sophia. We had our first real scare with her last weekend. We took her to her new pediatrician for a well visit on Ash Wednesday and she insisted on giving her 3 vaccinations although I was hesitant. For the next 3 nights Sophia was running a fever and was acting tired and sick. We tried to let the fever run its course until it spiked to 105 Saturday night while I was at work and James was out of town. Luckily my mom was watching Sophia and we were able to rush her to the ER. I have never been more terrified since having Sophia. I was holding her outside the hospital singing to her out loud and praying out loud that God would heal my little girl. People must have thought I was crazy, but I needed those prayers to be heard. I did not know the severity of the temperature. For all I knew, my daughter was on her way to becoming brain dead. I was hysterical, although I tried to stay strong for Sophia. We were able to bring her fever down with meds and the doctor told me that I had done the right thing by not giving her Tylenol when the fever was under 100. I know that I overreacted in this situation, but that's what motherhood has done to me. It breaks my heart to know that my child ever has to experience even the slightest amount of pain. I don't know if overloading Sophia with vaccinations is what caused the temperature, but I do not that in the future I will be assertive when it comes to defending what I believe is best for my children.