Tuesday, May 25, 2010
Being a mother has proven to be the most rewarding and nerve racking thing of my life thus far! Having a little 11 month old scooter presents many challenges during my day. I used to be afraid to take a shower because I didn't want to hear Sophia cry, now I am afraid to take a shower because I don't want her to choke on a piece of plastic that the vacuum missed. Leaving her alone for two minutes while I go do laundry is just not an option right now. I can put 5 toys in front of her and she will somehow find something off limits to put in her mouth instead! This evening, I put her on the floor with her beloved piano, but she was much more interested in the wrapping paper under the staircase. She managed to scoot across the living room, under the staircase and unravel half of the wrapping paper. I am finding that the older she gets, the more paranoid I become about her safety. Every time I leave her with someone, I can't help but be afraid for her safety. I know she is safe with her dad because I am constantly reminding him of just how careful he needs to be. I love him for putting up with me :) Am I crazy or are all mothers overly controlling when it comes to the well being of their children? I fear that this control will only get worse as she gets older. Who will be allowed to drive her places, how often will she be allowed to have junk food, what will she wear, what will her bed time be, who will her friends be? These are all things that I want to control, but I don't know that I can. Like I said before, being a mother is the most rewarding and nerve racking this of my life thus far!